Currently Listening Lost Songs By Anberlin Naive Orleans see related

Current mood: blank

It has been one of those days that has lasted for about 2 weeks now. In and out of funks and stunks. I hate these particular times for me, I love being happy. There really is no better way to spend your life on this earth than being happy. I am happy about 94 percent of the time. Even when I am angry, I am happy in my upsettednessishness. But, like Snoopy, I find myself having a happiness letdown. Maybe I am just tired, and maybe I am exausted to the point of emotional drainage, but i just feel so FLAT this time of year. No matter how round I actually am. Haha, beat you to it.

I dunno really what to do, I have plenty to be thankful for. A wonderful wife, a gracious heavenly Father, a great job, an incredible set of parents. It isn't like I am in any state of depression about anything, all in all, things are really GREAT in my life. That doesn't change the fact that I feel like crap! I'm jittery, I don't really care that Christmas is coming up. I think I just want a break from everything. I want to sleep and rest, watch movies and play video games. Sigh. Yes, I typed out "Sigh".  I want to get back to being old fat jolly Jon. Hmm, sorta reminds me of someone....can't figure it out. Oh well.

I would ask you to pray for me, but I would feel ridiculous doing that while  knowing a person whose mother is suffering from an Anurism in her abdomen. The doctors have nothing they can do. The 83 year old lady is just kinda waiting to see what is going to happen, with death a very real and very probable possibility. Keep her in prayer. Me? I will get over what ever is bugging me. Just pray for Madonna LeBlancs mother.

I think one of the blessings of being me is that I am resiliant. I will be over this soon and read this entry and wonder why on earth I wrote this out like a little crying 12 year old girl in her diary. And the sad thing is I really won't remember.

hmmm.

jon